Letter : A Birthday Letter

Hello, Sella ! This is more than wonderful to write to you . I completely have been waiting for this chance since forever, really. There are a lot of things I want to tell you about. Without further saying, let me start it.

You were totally crazy! Sometimes you didn’t have your brain in place, no, I mean your mind does not locate in the same place where you have your brain stuck. How could I say that?

Hmm, so the first reason, in some cases, you talked too much then regretted after saying that. I knew it is rarely bad HAHA but as soon as you end up speaking, you realized that you should not talk that much, which was not so important. Some words might hurt people’s feeling. Well, again I knew better than yourself, that you hate to start a debate, but your ego uncontrolled that response. Not bad, but it is much better to remain silent. Respond those people with only smart sentences, yes less is better. So, my suggestion for you, please do have several seconds of your time think before speaking, dear.

Secondly, the fact is you have challenged yourself with enough consideration even mostly did not make any regret. But then again, it is always better if you think at least twice. I knew you deserve to choose what kind of challenges you want to take, yes it’s your life. However, please, anything happened to you without you realize or not, will affect others. There are people who work with you in life, who love and care about your well-being, including you yourself. Be sure not to force yourself and be consistent. Put on your mind that you own another responsibility that will be asked on one certain day. Find the right challenge that won’t burden anyone. If you really need the scarification to make it happen- sure you need, just do it with yourself, sacrifice yourself for your own success.

Third thing, sometimes you ended up the day with regretting things you didn’t do well. Yap, you must know it, your communication with between Him. Once you remember that you should be consistent and be better, you will do things perfectly good. Nevertheless, there came a moment again when you forgot everything you said and “l”. Even if you remember, you still hardly find a reason to cover your bad. You are entirely insane as well as aware that stopping that evil thought is the one thing must do. Hey, He is everywhere, how could you do that? There are too many blessings and did you know how many times you feel grateful or sorry? Even if you do that in every second of life of yours, it will never be enough. Again, who will guarantee that all those sujoods are going to be accepted? None. What will secure and help you in that day?

Fourth, there are still many times, as I noticed, that you are not being honest, to yourself, to people, to the world. There are still times when you are not being truthful when you need to be one. You kept hiding something that should not be hidden. There are some fake smiles I felt. There are hard timing that you simply make it seem easy just to show that you are strong. It is not always right, Sella. “Remember to be who you are!” and you say this to many friends, in fact, you did not always show it yourself. Shall I write you a conclusion?